This blog is a personal record of my pilgrimage to Haifa, Israel, with side trips to London, Istanbul, Edirne, and Tel Aviv. You have arrived at the end but if you want to start at the beginning you can click HERE or on the list to your left. Then scroll to the bottom of that page where the first entry, Sept. 14, resides.
WARNING: this is me thinking about my stuff. There may, or may not, be more entries, but there will certainly be changes to existing entries as I think about my stuff. You are welcome to listen in.

People who might want to read it include:
- Baha'is planning a pilgrimage;
- anyone interested in "the meaning of life", travel, or the Baha'i Faith;
- friends and relatives who are worried I'll ask if they have read my blog;
- those whose computer has frozen on this page who can't remember the 3-finger salute. It's ctrl-alt-delete and don't say I never did you a favor.
The rest of you are also welcome but if your primary interest is in learning more about the Baha'i Faith you would be better served by going to www.bahai.org
This blog started out as a way to communicate with the folks back home and to keep track of when I did what in case I ever want to look it up. It has evolved into something more serious and, at the same time, mildly Pythonesque. I really didn't mean to do this but I'm glad it happened.
Be forwarned: I believe that the purpose of life is to learn to become radiantly acquiescent to the will of God. I know this sounds bizarre at a time in history when the ideal is self-involved and hell-bent and when people who talk about the will of God are liable to tick as they sit beside you on the bus.
So, let me put it another way. The sensible thing to do is not to "rage against the dying of the light" (a remarkably stupid idea) but to let go and ENJOY WHAT IS, accepting it rather than shit-fitting against the inevitable. This is not easy, at least not for me. Does this mean you are an idiot to do your best to change things for the better? No, you can try. You might not succeed but you might, too, and that's a good thing.
I am not, by the way, saying that you will win more easily trying to do something right than doing what you know is wrong. History and everyday life prove the opposite is true. God has an eternity to make something of the human race, individually and collectively. He is in no rush.
Another thing: we are all the servants of God which means that for some of us (quite a few, in fact) our primary service is as bad examples. Getting what we want, when we want it, can only occur at the expense of making complete fools of ourselves. Rampaging dictators, serial killers, and ordinary but useless or poisonous people live false lives, learning nothing. Then, they go to the hell of their own making. That's what I think.
I was not born with this religious p.o.v., of course. Just thinking about submission to the will of God annoys me, probably as much or more than it does you. I am conflicted, in short, by believing something I would rather not believe. My personal preference for a life's mission lies in quite a different direction. If you are interested in what diverted me, you can hear the Baha'i Writings on audio at www.bahaistudy.org/audio.html You can also download all the religious books known to humankind (nearly) from www.ocean.org This collection has marvellous search and compilation features that make putting together your own religious tracts or atheist rants a breeze. Enjoy.
A few days before leaving for Israel, it occurred to me that every journey needs a purpose. Living with the conflicts and contradictions between my Baha'i beliefs and my natural inclinations had gone on long enough. Resolving these became the goal of my pilgrimage. Is this goal attainable? Did I attain it?
No
Probably not
Perhaps
Partly
Yes
(Take your pick. I don't know.)
As you are probably already aware, blogs are backwards. I haven't read one (it's on my To Do list), so I don't know how this works in practice. In an attempt at coherence, I will try to update entries so that they make sense in light of what comes next. No promises, though. Essentially, as in all things, you are on your own (now, doesn't that go to the heart of the matter?)
If there are rules around blogging, I don't know what they are. The way I think best is to make notes, write, read what I wrote, think about it, write some more. My notes were blog entries made in various hostels, airports, and internet cafes. Now is the time to rewrite which includes add-ons, changes, evolution, and editing. I will try to spell things correctly but be damned if it is American, British or a combination. This is my right as a Canadian.
Should you find yourself stirred to sort me out on matters of opinion, you can send a comment to: cheeryquery@yahoo.com One thing is for sure: if you try to explain why you think either my grammar or punctuation is off, I won't understand a word you say while totally disrespecting your right to say it.
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Updated: Monday, 19 December 2005 1:57 AM